Monday, October 24, 2005
~ 9:24 pm ~
Hmmm.... The pass few days i've been staying at home thinking, crying, but i still don't know what to do. I've always told myself that i'll be able to see her more after the exams but in the end i was just lying to myself. We had a huge quarrel on fri, that night i stayed up till 3 to cy it out. Then the next day i had BB, she ignored me at first but then things when back to "normal". "Normal" because if she's nice to me again i'll miss her even more.
Sat had BB swimming test, i failed, some how there was no more motivation, there was nothing to push me on, nothing, i said i wanted to give up many times but Godwin told me i wasn't pushing, but, i told him i tried m best. After that when home staight. Yesterday I also tried very hard to forget her, but it gets worst, the more she's nice to me the mre depessed i become. Then when to Orchard with Joseph and Joash, but some how, i felt lyk i wasn't there, some part of me was missing.
Thursday, October 20, 2005
~ 3:15 am ~
She tld me it's ok. it's fine, nvm, nth is wrong. Dats wad she said in front of me, but in her blog she said everybody play games dun care abt her, nobody talk 2 her she veri cian. Den hu am i? I am her boyfriend and she takes it lyk i dun even exist. I love her i realli realli do, y muz i sae this evryday 2 let her noe? Cuz i dun think hse does lor. Wad sld i do now? She's not behaving lyk she used 2, wad's wrong? I realli dun noe....
Sunday, October 16, 2005
~ 10:29 am ~
I'm veri sad now, dunno wad 2 do, i realli wanna spend time wif her, but now datshe can play maple story again i doubt she will pay attention and spend time wif me anymore lor, i dun wanna play but i wanna spend more time wif her, the previous daes were fun, but i dun think there will be anymore cuz, she will pay more attention to her games le, i'm in a delima.
I told her try not 2 play so often but all dat i get was a cold shoulder, wad did i do wrong again? Didn't u tell me even thou is yr dat time of the month u will try yr best not 2 get mad at me? Isn't i veri unfair, all i did was tell u how i feel and this is wad i get, our 2 month anniversary is coming soon, i dun wan anymore quarrels.
I realli thought there was not going to be anymore quarrels between us but, i was wrong... One can nv be sure of th future, love can one day fade away, but i dun believe so, love is lyk a scar, once in flicted, it nv goes away no matter how much u try, then y r u trying 2 hide the scar?....
Sunday, October 02, 2005
~ 7:52 pm ~
Wa, nv knew dat she cared so much bout me lor, now dat i do, i'll love her more. I've let her down twice this week, so sad, i'm so stupid, y i do things nv go thru my stupid head one? Can onli blame my self now lor... Haizz...
Hmmm... My exams is juz arnd the corner, so wun be doing much blogging frm now onwards liao, so dun miss me ppl... Hee hee... Bghhb... Wahahahahahaha... Hmm darling agreed 2 play the Bootis or wadever server wif me liao...
