Hmmm.... The pass few days i've been staying at home thinking, crying, but i still don't know what to do. I've always told myself that i'll be able to see her more after the exams but in the end i was just lying to myself. We had a huge quarrel on fri, that night i stayed up till 3 to cy it out. Then the next day i had BB, she ignored me at first but then things when back to "normal". "Normal" because if she's nice to me again i'll miss her even more. Sat had BB swimming test, i failed, some how there was no more motivation, there was nothing to push me on, nothing, i said i wanted to give up many times but Godwin told me i wasn't pushing, but, i told him i tried m best. After that when home staight. Yesterday I also tried very hard to forget her, but it gets worst, the more she's nice to me the mre depessed i become. Then when to Orchard with Joseph and Joash, but some how, i felt lyk i wasn't there, some part of me was missing.
