Guys, ever thought about how one can actually be happy at a time when most should be sad. I'm sad now because i'm happy. I'm feling guilty that this may show that I don't love her much at all. But i swear it's untrue, I'm happy that she'l be hap, but will she? That's what confuses me, if I can know if she's happy the it'll be great, but I really can't help but think, is she crying now? It'll seriously suck because she has like exams tomorrow and i don't want her to bear any burden. So my last request to you shall be please, i beg you, Charmine, please don't feel sad ok? You don't have to feel guilty about anything, i knew this was coming already and i'm somehow prepared ever since the start. I've kept my friends close to my heart and i'm glad i've stayed true and never lose myself in the process of this relationship. Looking back at the happy memories weren't actually very happy at all because all along i knew we didn't had the "Chemistry", i'm so so sorry to have told you only now because i've tried my best to improve it. I really just don't want you to see me as a jerk who deliberately drags on a relationship when i knew it would never make it because deep inside i'm afraid to hurt you too. But the truth is that I do love you for the girl you are inside, the girl who's always wiling to put others before herself.. Rock on yeah!.. You have been great to me, so great that deep inside i may not want to let go, but dragging it on is just going to make it worst. Remember to always stay true to your heart, do not change for no one and SMILE!...
I'll always have a place in my heart for you, I'll never forget you...''
Oh ya, Peishan, if you're reading this, thanks for teaching me so much on how to let go, it makes it much easier to let go...
