Wednesday, December 19, 2007
~ 12:28 am ~
Nadleeh.. Came accross this term while watching Gundam 00, it means dual spirit of different gender residing inside one entity. Was kinda bored because I spent the entired day at home rotting, so I began to think a little about it. Yes, that's right, ever since secondary school, people's been calling me names of being a homosexual bluntly because of my looks or simply the way I present myself. Even so, I've never actually questioned my sexuality, wherefore I believe that I am straight which is justified by my constant fantasies about chicks and the feeling of threat whenever a guy approaches. Still then, even the manliest man on Earth would have a little feminine side of him. The following philosophy is by Marcus..
Deep inside of everyone, two "souls" will reside, one driven by pure instinct, the other by curiosity.. The former dominant whilest the latter recessive under normal circumstances. I believe people become homosexual not because of instincts but because of their curiosity which is so over-whelming, they began to think that it is them. Whereas for a bisexual, both souls are at equilibrium. Many religion, like my own, forbid these acts and as much as I love God, I can't deny thay deep inside of me lies my other self too.. Proof of it's existence is justified by the fact that each time I see a pretty girl, more of me will go "Wow!. She's uber hot!!" While deep inside of me another half would say in "Wonder what's it's like being her".
Still, I do not approve of homosexual relationships because if one were to let his curiosity get the better of him, it would lead him/her to oblivion ay? Anyways, a little update on life!.. I'll most probably be going out tomorrow(fingers crossed) and I'll get to see my bro's young tutor, hope she's cute!!... Work on Thursday, looking forward to no audit, no truck and 1.5 times pay!!... XD
Tataz!... =)
